It has now become an annual affair. I commit myself to be a regular blogger, set up a new website (after spending weeks to find the hottest blogging platform), start writing in my drafts, and then, I don't publish anything. Months ago, I moved my blog from Listed to my personal website (where you are reading this now), hoping to write regularly and restart my newsletter. How many posts did I publish? Zero. Nothing.
Among my many unlikable traits, procrastination has a special place. I want to believe I have mastered self-control, that I can resist temptations and overcome instant gratification, but my unpublished drafts shatters those illusions. I hate it.
One possible reason is my inability to accept the fact that I am an average writer. I can't craft beautiful sentences that make me fall in love with my words. And I am almost never satisfied with the structure which I settle on after endless hours of scribbling. The quest for the perfect prose — without exactly knowing what "perfect" means — leads to writing paralysis. In those moments, I forget that the only way to become a better writer is to write more, get feedback, and improve on the go.
So here is an attempt to break this block. Last week, I hired a fitness coach to get professional guidance to meet my health and physique goals — my 12-week training began today. And yesterday, I strapped a coin-sized device on the back of my upper arm to monitor my blood sugar levels for a fortnight. It is an experiment to understand my body.
Irrespective of what comes out of this health experiment and my training, one thing is certain: I will learn a lot. Geeking out on nutrition and exercise is a lot of fun, and sharing what I learn gives me great pleasure. That is the motivation of this project: I will publish what I encounter on this blog.
I am calling this a Fitness Journal. I will write it just like I write in my journal: no pressure on imagining what the world will think, and no high expectations from the output. Short posts with raw thoughts and observations, ideas and concepts, questions and conclusions. That does not mean I will be completely casual and disrespect the time of any potential reader. Just that I am going to relieve myself from the prison of perfection.
I will know in a few weeks if this project will end up as a fresh example of my procrastinating skills or lead to a habit which makes me finish my unpublished writing (on statistics, philosophy, journalism, and more).
Index of published posts:
#1: Body composition and fitness goals (November 16, 2021)
#2: Why I hired a coach (November 18, 2021)
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